Because I officially do!
That's right! I am PREGNANT!!
And in complete shock!!
I was SO convinced that this last cycle was just not going to work and I stopped caring. I literally had the next cycle planned all out and knew I could cycle without Christmas interfering. It's just how it was going to go. I didn't test once, didn't even think about it. So when I didn't start at exactly 17 dpo like I always do (I have a consistent 16 day luteal phase) I was also convinced that my body was messing with me and I was starting to get really pissed off.
But a tiny, tiny voice in my head said... what if?
So I waited it all out on Wednesday analyzing every twinge and cramp convinced that I would start any minute because I was cramping steadily... not hard or super painful, just constant.
I took a bubble bath with a good book and I took myself to bed.
I woke up at 5 am on Thursday and had to pee and made myself stay in bed as long as I could because I was trying to delay the inevitable negative.
The test turned positive before I even got the cap on it! I was in such SHOCK!!! I was just standing in my bathroom shaking and saying 'Holy sh*t!!' over and over and over again.
I went in for my first beta at 9:30 in the morning and when the nurse called she said, 'honey, you should lay down and take a nap because you are very, very pregnant.'
First beta: 543
Progesterone: greater than 20
Due Date: August 16, 2011
I have my second beta on Saturday (and since I am setting this to auto-post I will already have those results and will update you all asap).
I wanted to share with all of you right away but now that this lil blog is so much more public and connected to facebook I didn't want my in-laws to see it because we are telling them in person this weekend.
I am so overwhelmed and this really does not seem real, yet. At all. But one thing I do know is I am so, so grateful.
After 21 months of trying my dream is finally coming true. Thank you God.