Hopelessly Devoted to You

He made up for it! :) We talked while he was at work, I wanted to wait until he came home but he could tell that I was upset and called me on his break. I explained how he had made me feel and he understood and apologized. Then he came home with flowers AND a card!! I really do have a wonderful husband.

He makes me crzy sometimes and he's frustrating and infuriating... but he loves me more than I could ever have imagined possible. I love him quite a bit too... How can you not love a man who wears a tree skirt as a cape and sings to you in the mornings?!? He makes me laugh everyday and he's an EXCELLENT kisser (that was one of my highest standards when looking for a husband).

I am trying to come to peace with the fact that we may never have a baby. I want to know that I will be ok if we don't. If clomid doesn't work next month we will move on to IUI and if that doesn't work... we're done. Neither one of us feels comfortable with IVF (the cost being one of the major factors) and I don't think we would want to adopt.

Once upon a time, I didn't want kids. I was adamant that I would never want them. But then I met my Husband and there was something about falling madly in love with someone in under a month that makes you start wanting things you never thought you would.

So I want to know that I will be ok if there is never a baby. I am trying to come to terms with it. Instead of college funds and diapers and onesies... vacations. Instead of sippy cups, baby food, potty training... white furniture. Instead of nurseries, 4 am feedings and strollers... sports car.

But man... all I can think about are sippy cups, nurseries, and onesies...