Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Fat Lady Sang

It's over. The cycle that could officially ended this morning.

These last few days I had a feeling it would. The cramping I was feeling was just too familiar. So these last few days when it's really hit me that this wasn't working I've been crying my heart out. On the floor of the bathroom sobbing.

So this morning when I got up and I hadn't started I felt a tiny bloom of hope because if I was going to start today would be the day officially confirming that I consistently have a 16 day luteal phase.

So to start while I was peeing on a pregnancy test... I can only assume that Mother Nature is one HUGE effing bitch.

To top it all off I have come to realize that I am one of those women who invent pregnancy symptoms and convinces herself she's knocked up. Yep, I'm that kind of special crazy.

So tomorrow I will think about a new cycle. Today I will, once again, grieve for what I never had.


Sarah Q

16 comments:

  1. Oh, Sparkle, I am so sorry...thoughts and prayers are with you.

    ((HUGS))

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  2. *hugs* I am so sorry. Thinking of you today.

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  3. As I've already told you via email this morning... if you need to vent you know how to reach me. Mother nature has a cruel sense of humor - I wish we could kick her in HER ute like she does to us FAR too often! Sending you hugs!

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  4. oh, sarah. i know there are no words, so i won't say any. just know that you have a hug being sent to you. if you want a shoulder to cry on, let me know and you can call me. so very heartbroken for you, sweets.

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  5. I'm sorry :( I hope next cycle brings your miracle.

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  6. I'm also sorry. Sending you strength and hugs.

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  7. I'm so sorry sarah!!! Sending you hugs.

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  8. Hugs to you, lady! I have no words but, I'm thinking of you.

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  9. Sparkle, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Im so so sorry it didn't work this time. Will be thinking of you today....

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  10. Oh Sarah I am so sorry! Sending hugs. I will be thinking of you as you start the next cycle. xoxo.

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  11. Sorry it came to this. It does suck, take all the time you need to keep on keepin' on!

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  12. I'm sorry this cycle didn't work out. Sending love and hugs your way.

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  13. Ah, I can't really offer anything else that the others haven't said already, but I really AM sorry to hear about this and I do know how incredibly frustrating/heartbreaking/annoying it is to go through everything. Fingers crossed for your future; don't give up hope.

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  14. I hate this for you Sparkle... I just hate it. :(

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